It’s something that has been instilled in me from a very young age without me even being aware of it. For as far back as I can remember, I’ve been inundated with images of people meeting, falling in love, getting married, and living happily ever after. These subliminal messages were everywhere: on TV, in movies, at family get-togethers, at school; the message being: you will not be happy until you find someone to cling to like a barnacle on a whale for the rest of your life.
Users, manipulators, liars, guilt-trippers, smooth talkers, and the emotionally unavailable – please stay far, far away from me!
I am so tired of my quiet, shy, trusting, naïve, and non-confrontational nature being used as a pass to walk all over me. TIRED!
It’s an inevitable question, one that we will all be asked countless times in our lifetime: What do you like to do?
I truly dread that question. My face takes on that deer in the headlight look, my palms get sweaty, and my brain races to find an answer, any answer because the truth is, I don’t know. I do not know what I like.
There is this numb feeling that comes over you when you find out that someone you saw just recently has passed away unexpectedly. All the memories and conversations you had with that person play in your mind on repeat.